20th of January, 2008:

I woke up that day with 1 thing on my mind "Must do well on my Syntax quiz!!!" I didn't realize that something more important is waiting for me.

As I left the Syntax quiz, where I did ok, I got a text message from my brother who is staying with my father at the hospital:

"Dad is doing a bit not ok, they had to connect the breathing supporter for him to breath."

It simple made me down. As I was on my way back home, I though I'd get some lunch and go to my friend Zoly. I did, we had a fun lunch, then I went home, changed clothes, went to pick up my sister to go to next town, to my dad, at the hospital.

We got off the car, and the moment we reached the main gate at the hospital my aunt called me and asked me to come back home!!

Lately, this code means "Somone died" I gave my sister the phone, my aunt told her that our dad has passed away!

I kept repeating "He died? He died? He died?" I swear I felt that the whole planet crashed over my head. My own mother passed away almost 9 years ago, and now my father. I think I'm still on denial, because I simply don't think about it. Writing this right now is actually making me shaking with fear. What am I going to do? People keep telling me things are going to turn ok, it's just words. The thing is that my siblings are married and I'm single, all alone.

What am I going to do?!